This one would probably be a bit more enjoyable if Amma weren't making her way through a two-year Chiron square her Sun transit, which was exact for her for the second time yesterday. I was thinking we were doing quite well - and compared to last year, we are - but when Amma came downstairs to collect Star Child this morning and found her in bed with me watching Kingdom of the Shades on YouTube I got another I don't want her to be on the computer this much speech.
In a way, I was hoist with my own petard, as last night I got it into my head that all I wanted to do was sit on a couch as though it were my own and watch mindless television for an hour, and had begun to watch Law & Order while Star Child was in the bath. When Amma joined me, she started to watch too, and when Star Child asked to look at my iPhoto collection I said yes. SC then wanted to do The Meadow on Amma's computer, a request that got turned down as it was late, which somehow deteriorated into a crying bout on SC's part and me turning off the television. When the storm was over and Amma emerged from the bedroom, I said something about how I wished SC could amuse herself and play quietly or look at books once in a while without having an adult pay constant attention to her, which got thrown in my face this morning when I was discovered in flagrante delicto with American Ballet Theater.
SC usually stays upstairs in the mornings and I was surprised there was no outcry from above when she came down soon after waking up and snuggled up in bed with me. I know Amma is doing her best to accept the situation (me being back in the hallway again) and it is light years different than last year. I just hope we can chug along now in harmony, at least till Chiron retraces its path in December. I don't know whether to end with fingers crossed or yeah, right.
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