Okay, so this ground to a halt last Sunday afternoon as I wondered whether to leave my 60th Anniversary Waring Blender that I bought in the olden days when I had a well-paying job in my wheelie bag or take it out again and put it back in the kitchen cabinet, a weighty (!!!) decision that I eventually solved by leaving the blender exactly where it was and bringing it back to Cambridge, where I unloaded it the next day and put it in my landlady's pantry next to her not-60th-Anniversary Waring blender. You just never know when you're going to want a blueberry smoothie and your landlady wants a strawberry one.
That dilemma solved, it was off to counseling on Tuesday morning with Mercury trine Pluto, where I sat with tears streaming down my cheeks and was somewhat startled to hear the therapist ask me when was the last time I was happy. It seemed to me perfectly natural to be crying, what with being turned out of my hallway, paying more than I pay for my apartment for one room, not being able to have my cat with me, the sublet I thought was going to allow me to save some money this year not going through and my landlord now refusing to renew my lease, but obviously I was wrong and what I need to do is seek out temporary counseling just for myself and get my medication readjusted.
On hearing that, I blew all further credibility with her by saying she was free to roll her eyes but I happened to be convinced of the viability of astrology and was merely an example of As Above, So Below, and as soon as Saturn stopped stationing opposite my Venus I would no longer feel emotionally isolated and as though I had not a friend in the world, and thank you very much but I'd just as soon pass on individual therapy and even more medication.
So tomorrow - as already a week has passed since then but I've been crying so much I couldn't see the keyboard - I shall paste a big smile on my face and tell her it's the last day of the Saturn station and I'm already feeling much better, and I'm sure, with a full moon opposed to mine coming up that night, everything is going to be fine fine fine.
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