Well, if the nodes represent people and the south one - the one where there's supposedly nothing there for us - is currently in Gemini, natural ruler of the Third house and neighborhoods, perhaps that explains why I felt at such a loss yesterday, Wednesday, when I walked out of the post office after sending off presents for Lula and Lila, the Return Receipt Requested letter to my landlord's attorney and my financial information for last year to the man who does my taxes. It was a beautiful day, temperature somewhere in the fifties, and still light, and I realized I had nowhere to go and no one to go there with and had absolutely no idea what to do with myself.
It had already been an unsettling day. With Star Child off from school, reinforcements had had to be called in so Ahma and I could go to counseling, but those reinforcements had taken Star Child off to lunch after caring for her for the morning, and I'd already spent two and a half hours twiddling my thumbs waiting for SC to be brought home. If I'd known that was going to happen, I wouldn't have gone back to Concord Avenue after counseling but would have returned to Fayerweather and made a start on my taxes, but never mind. At least I was able to get on the phone with Tracfone and sort out why my phone was in emergency mode and couldn't be used, so looking on the bright side it was only a waste of two hours, not two and a half.
But that feeling, leaving the post office, of being a fish out of water made me uncomfortable, to say the least. God knows it's not as if I've ever felt I belong here or anything, but this was a complete Stranger in a Strange Land OMG what shall I do with myself now feeling - nasty. The only thing I could think of doing, knowing the Concord Avenue set were going out for the evening, was going round there and playing Poke with Sweet Pea, and that backfired spectacularly as they were still there when I got there and I found out a couple of friends were coming by to pick them up. It felt a little as I imagine torture on the rack must feel to know I'd have to comport myself in front of two strangers, but there was no time to escape as the doorbell rang as I was being told they were coming.
Fortunately Star Child, as usual was the center of attention, and I'd like to think my mumbled "nice to meet you" as I wished oh so originally that the floor would open up beneath me sounded reasonably natural to them, and not as awkward and gawky as I felt it must.
This dies horribilis was very short-lived, the day the aspect was exact, to be precise; nothing leading up to it that I could identify and nothing today, the day after. Star Child and I took ourselves off to the Fresh Ponds Mall this morning and while I'll never feel like a Cambridge native I pushed my cart round Trader Joes with the best of them.
Should anyone among my vast readership have ever experienced this transit, I'd be very interested to know how it manifested. Thank God I'll be dead before it comes around again - and that's from someone who's had Saturn stationed opposite Venus for weeks.
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